So depending on how you count it (Patri and I were bickering over this the other night ;) I'm keeping around a 70-80hr work week with baby stuff. (time spent at the hospital + pumping at home)

I've been handling this way way better than I would have imagined. But I've also been generally mentally slow lately: slow to move, to decide what to do, needing things repeated more often, etc. Basically, what I think is going on is that I'm spreading out my brain power ;)

I recall hearing or reading somewhere a while back that a key difference between women and men is basically women's ability to do this. Relatively speaking, for men, they can either focus or not, but women tend to be able to adjust level of focus.

So, since nothing I'm doing is exactly rocket science, as long as I'm alert for a few things like driving and moving the baby, and I'm with it enough to follow my routines, get up and do the right thing when my alarm goes off, etc., I can basically go through the entire day half awake ;)

Not as exciting as critical thinking, but critical that I can do it ;)

And in fact, my feminine dominant brand of ADD has finally been coming in handy, as those ev-bio people will feel vindicated to hear ;) Unlike in grade school where spacing out was always a bad thing, my ability to disassociate from the world and go into my own sort of waking dream state makes sitting still and quiet for 2.5 hrs holding the baby while he sleeps not so bad... even pleasurable! (it is tough though when for some reason I'm not able to go into this state, namely, on the rare occasion where I feel well rested ;)

And of course, the other half of my being able to keep up what I'm doing it is help from Patri. I've delegated pretty much every brain power involving task to him, because I just "haven't felt able to handle" things even as simple as sorting my mail.

I've always had a tendency towards shutting down when being pressed to do things I don't want to, but its gotten much more extreme these days. Thankfully Patri's doing a great job with taking care of his own stuff, the loads of additional administratia we have to deal with for Tovar, and the stuff of mine that I've been neglecting. And I've finally talked him into cutting down his work hours so that he can keep his level of alertness without going crazy ;)