The end of the year also ended a friendship that was very dear to me.

He's someone who has really helped me a lot. Reassured me that other people see things from the same perspectives that I do. Encouraged me to build boundaries in cases where they were greatly needed. Helped me explore from different points of view and find my own.

I will miss him a lot, although I have no intentions of trying to win him back. I refuse to say sorry, and I especially refuse to change my behaviors, when I don't think I did anything wrong. And he wouldn't forgive me even if I did.

The internal strength I feel in situations like this is odd. Out of nowhere I'm confident and know what to do.

So it is goodbye. At least for now. Its possible that we will become friends again, but not without a lot of time, probably years if at all. Everything is out on the table, there is nothing to discuss. I will be putting up my own boundaries with him although I doubt they will be needed.

He will always be special to me, and is one of the few people whom I think of as exceptional without considering him relatively. A truly beautiful person, I wish him well.